Will be graduated from high school in couple days to go.


Terakhir kali gue deg-degan sampai isi perut rasanya diaduk dan kepala mau pecah adalah ngeliatin psb online sekitar 3 tahun yang lalu and here goes again. This feeling hits me back.
Strikes in this time, when brain hardly in use and heart pumps too much blood in body system, badan panas tapi ujung jari rasanya beku. Maybe this is like when western people say "I can't feel my hands" on a minus degree temperature day. Overthink may kill slowly, and i'm the overthink survivor .
Analogically: I'm Aviophobia and on the flight for one month right now. Maybe on that long trip, i'm gonna throw up for thousand times, fainting for million times but i have to stick out until the plane get landed, someday.
"Fasten your seat belt!", "We're gonna take off in 5 minutes from now." Half of dead.
So, which university that will be the destination guys? God saves the ticket and you on the way to get it through.


Time flies too fast.. Sudah selesaikah masa putih abu-abu ini?
I was awkwardly sad, how often i complain about the shits in school and now crying over this end.
I almost spent half of my day at school, even more. So who's not loving this lovely suicide place?
Inhale.
I remember details.
Gue gak akan pernah lupa pertama kali masuk kesekolah yang sebagian besar orangnya gak gue kenal sama sekali dan dalam hitungan kurang dari setahun, they're my life.
Naik kelas lalu membuat keputusan besar untuk tidak mengejar FKG dan harus ikhlas setengah mati ngejar setumpuk materi geografi yang gak ada abisnya di kelas XII. Three years is not only three years. This last year will be last forever.
Exhale.
I always remember details.
Shut me up. High school life has no tip to tell.
Gue pun sampai gatau harus nulis apa, a lot of things to write.
Senangnya gak terikat sama sepatu hitam bertali dan gesper yang selalu hilang entah kemana tapi sedihnya luar biasa sudah gak merasakan duduk paling depan tapi masih bisa curhatin bla sampai nangis and no one fucking cares.
Yea.. i'll miss all moments. So i'm here gonna say that most people quotes who say the most beautiful time of school is high school WAS SO TRUE. High school never ends, you're true.

" So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money

When we look back now,

Will our jokes still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule.." 

Graduation - Vitamin C

All of three years memories with this uniform will be saved in a pretty box full of joys and tears.